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ccrunner524 — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 19:19:41 +0000

Hey guys,
So i promise i have been reading…but havent been writing it out. Which is stupid on my part. I have some time today so i am getting my butt into gear and actually writing it out. Geez where to begin. Im reading Romans 13 today. And yet again it connects to life. You know what i do? I ignore it lol. So thats why im reading it a 2nd time. Let me start out with this. Lately my smallgroup has been challenging me to step out of my box (the comfortable life i choose to stay in). Its funny how things happen, because as soon as i start to do that its like my life goes crazy. I know its a form of spiritual warfare…but it just sucks. I try to get out of my modes and something is trying to keep me in my comfort zone. Recently ive been trying to get out of my self-centeredness. Ive had the last 2 weeks of messages and conversations that get brought up about how i need to get rid of myself and my desires. I even had a ‘God Moment’ where the same message was impressed on my heart. You would think oh i should be all happy about it, but no … im scared to death. It comes down to that im scared to listen to God. The message this week at Sandals was all about that too. God knows me way to good. He knows i HAVE to hear it about 30+ times to get it. My wife will stop at only 3 or 4 times at telling me something lol. You know, i sometimes wish Christianity was easy. In may ways im glad that its not, because if it was up to me … my life would suck. Anywayz ive been talking alot and ill briefly go over what i read. romans 13

1Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God.

So im totally doing my taxes right now, and im going nuts. I havent made any money, why should the freaking government take some more money from me. I think i made 23 bucks in August. thats what … 1/2 a tank of gas? Still God wants me to respect our government, even though we are in the midst of a recession. crazy. Next.

8 Owe nothing to anyone except to love one another; for he who loves his neighbor has fulfilled the law.

Once again, this is what ive am striving for. Love people. Hell i struggle to love my wife 100% of the time. But this is my biggest prayer right now.

Sorry for the lack of insight on this chapter … i get distracted with things that come up every 10 to 20 mins or so lol. plus this comp keeps freezing

Love.

ccrunner524 — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:35:27 +0000

Alright guys, don’t know if anyone even follows blogs anymore. Which its not for you anyways…its for me! You can read if you like though.

I’ve been reading 1st Corth for a while and I’m on chapter 13. Great one to start blogging on lol. Its the famous ‘love’ chapter. Starting off I’m going to tell you my own bias’ and insecurities about love. I have a hard time loving people and myself. Throughout my life i wanted to know i was loved (who doesn’t), only I received back disappointment after disappointment from people and things. I learned early on that to love means that I will probably get hurt…so why love. So I’m very apathetic towards alot of things in life. Once again…my signature sin is the need to avoid pain. I wanted to avoid me getting hurt, so the easiest way to do that is to not love or let people love me. So easy to twist something meant for good to become evil. So coming to this passage i have deep resentment for love. Even though i have grown out of my isolationism and self-centeredism i still have a hard time trusting it. Paul starts off in verse 2 and 3 saying,

if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

For me I could do everything right…but if i don’t love its worth nothing. Ouch. Through my bitter resentment toward love, I become nothing. So it leaves me with…ok now what. What can i do to love people? I want my life to meaningful and reflect God…But im missing the biggest part. Even the two biggest commandments are love God and love your neighbors. I can bearly love myself at times! So Paul gives us examples…

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

This is soooo hard for me to except, because i have experienced what i thought was love yet these things were in those relationship. How can i get over being burned from the past? I think one of the ways that just came to mind is living in the here and now. Christianity is not about reliving the past and its not about looking toward the future. Its the here and now. God wants me to live life to the fullest right now! Not worry about how live was years ago. Love someone NOW not in the future. NOW! Paul goes on to say,

Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

I think what he means is he cant see everything clearly in life, but with God we can. I need to trust God to let me see clearly in my life. To trust him to let me be open and vulnerable to love someone who may not even deserve it. Why? Paul ends the chapter saying why,

13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

Project till next time: Love People.

Ouch…Face the facts

ccrunner524 — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 21:33:32 +0000

Wow Look at the date, its been officially over a year since Ive last blogged. I remember how i would go insane if i hadn’t blogged at least 4 times a week. Now its all about twitter rather than blogging. Funny. Well, what can i say. Its been a wild year. When i mean wild i mean, dang you’ve been here and there and everywhere! Moving to Arizona…moving back to California. Its a long story, not sure if i want to tell it. What i can say is i have done a lot of growing. Some in areas i had no idea i needed to. I apologize if i sound vague, but what i really want to say is this. For all the growing Ive done, Ive lacked growth in my spiritual life the last few months. This is due to my signature sin, the need to avoid pain. Ive slipped out of my consistent schedule spending time with God and i don’t want to face the facts that when i go back even though it will be awesome and great i have to face…pain. My faults and failures. Therefore i decided that maybe its time to listen to old and good advice since its why i started blogging, ‘Blog your reading of the Bible so that i have to do it’. When i say ‘do it’ i mean ACTUALLY read…not forcing me to read. I can read and then there ACTUALLY reading…if that makes sense. So Hopefully i can post every so many days of what Ive read. If not I’m kickin myself in the face.

Daley Hake-ified.

ccrunner524 — Mon, 19 May 2008 06:52:07 +0000

So we spent Friday evening in San Diego at Balboa Park with Daley Hake. Had a jolly old time…found a cool pub and took some amazing pictures! Here are just a few great pictures!

Rob Bell

ccrunner524 — Tue, 13 May 2008 01:34:04 +0000

Interesting Interview…check it out.
Rob Bell Interview

Where teh Voges has been…

ccrunner524 — Sun, 11 May 2008 18:09:16 +0000

For those who miss my random blogs…i owe you an explaination. For those who dont miss my blogs and didnt know i bloged…i owe you an explaination. No i havnt been seeing another blog, but i have been reading a different kind of blog. A newspaper one. Here is my adventure in making a newspaper crossbow. Sorry i have been gone…this has sucked up my last few weeks.

Teh Latest Logo…

ccrunner524 — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:21:50 +0000

Sorry its a bit late.

Teh Video Blog 6.

ccrunner524 — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:03:42 +0000

Sorry guys i havent been doing many typing blogs, my focus and energy have been diverted elsewhere…ill keep you posted. Enjoy.

Another Reason to love Sandals.

ccrunner524 — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 18:06:37 +0000

from www.sandalsgroups.com

This is why i enjoy going to teh Sandals Church office.

Teh ASU.

ccrunner524 — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 17:51:30 +0000

Michelle and I went and visited ASU. All I have to say is wow. God is amazing. We sat down and listened to their ‘talk’ about the school. Very impressive. What we found out though was crazy. Since I’m getting married to Michelle in July, it is possible for me to go in as an Arizonan resident, which means that it will cost a third of what I would be paying. Also I may qualify for free school, based on how much we will be making! One thing I was kind of bummed about would be the amount of traveling I will have to do, and then they told us about transportation. I can get free shuttles to any of the schools with wifi (bloggers dream)! So I’m super excited about finishing school there.