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September 3, 2009, 12:19 pm
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Hey guys,
So i promise i have been reading…but havent been writing it out. Which is stupid on my part. I have some time today so i am getting my butt into gear and actually writing it out. Geez where to begin. Im reading Romans 13 today. And yet again it connects to life. You know what i do? I ignore it lol. So thats why im reading it a 2nd time. Let me start out with this. Lately my smallgroup has been challenging me to step out of my box (the comfortable life i choose to stay in). Its funny how things happen, because as soon as i start to do that its like my life goes crazy. I know its a form of spiritual warfare…but it just sucks. I try to get out of my modes and something is trying to keep me in my comfort zone. Recently ive been trying to get out of my self-centeredness. Ive had the last 2 weeks of messages and conversations that get brought up about how i need to get rid of myself and my desires. I even had a ‘God Moment’ where the same message was impressed on my heart. You would think oh i should be all happy about it, but no … im scared to death. It comes down to that im scared to listen to God. The message this week at Sandals was all about that too. God knows me way to good. He knows i HAVE to hear it about 30+ times to get it. My wife will stop at only 3 or 4 times at telling me something lol. You know, i sometimes wish Christianity was easy. In may ways im glad that its not, because if it was up to me … my life would suck. Anywayz ive been talking alot and ill briefly go over what i read. romans 13

1Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God.

So im totally doing my taxes right now, and im going nuts. I havent made any money, why should the freaking government take some more money from me. I think i made 23 bucks in August. thats what … 1/2 a tank of gas? Still God wants me to respect our government, even though we are in the midst of a recession. crazy. Next.

8 Owe nothing to anyone except to love one another; for he who loves his neighbor has fulfilled the law.

Once again, this is what ive am striving for. Love people. Hell i struggle to love my wife 100% of the time. But this is my biggest prayer right now.

Sorry for the lack of insight on this chapter … i get distracted with things that come up every 10 to 20 mins or so lol. plus this comp keeps freezing 😦

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Love.
July 21, 2009, 1:35 pm
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Alright guys, don’t know if anyone even follows blogs anymore. Which its not for you anyways…its for me! You can read if you like though.

I’ve been reading 1st Corth for a while and I’m on chapter 13. Great one to start blogging on lol. Its the famous ‘love’ chapter. Starting off I’m going to tell you my own bias’ and insecurities about love. I have a hard time loving people and myself. Throughout my life i wanted to know i was loved (who doesn’t), only I received back disappointment after disappointment from people and things. I learned early on that to love means that I will probably get hurt…so why love. So I’m very apathetic towards alot of things in life. Once again…my signature sin is the need to avoid pain. I wanted to avoid me getting hurt, so the easiest way to do that is to not love or let people love me. So easy to twist something meant for good to become evil. So coming to this passage i have deep resentment for love. Even though i have grown out of my isolationism and self-centeredism i still have a hard time trusting it. Paul starts off in verse 2 and 3 saying,

if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

For me I could do everything right…but if i don’t love its worth nothing. Ouch. Through my bitter resentment toward love, I become nothing. So it leaves me with…ok now what. What can i do to love people? I want my life to meaningful and reflect God…But im missing the biggest part. Even the two biggest commandments are love God and love your neighbors. I can bearly love myself at times! So Paul gives us examples…

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

This is soooo hard for me to except, because i have experienced what i thought was love yet these things were in those relationship. How can i get over being burned from the past? I think one of the ways that just came to mind is living in the here and now. Christianity is not about reliving the past and its not about looking toward the future. Its the here and now. God wants me to live life to the fullest right now! Not worry about how live was years ago. Love someone NOW not in the future. NOW! Paul goes on to say,

Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

I think what he means is he cant see everything clearly in life, but with God we can. I need to trust God to let me see clearly in my life. To trust him to let me be open and vulnerable to love someone who may not even deserve it. Why? Paul ends the chapter saying why,

13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

Project till next time: Love People.



Harry Potter
November 30, 2007, 12:15 pm
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Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

I never thought this would happen…but I did it. At the beginning of my school semester, i started listening to Harry Potter on Audio in my car on the way to school. It took me 4 months to do it on 3 trips a week but I just finished Book 7. I think the last 3 books were my favorite because I saw the movies already and knew what was going to happen. Surprisingly they are really good books and I now know why people waited till 12 pm to get them the next day. One thing I am glad about is that I waited till the 7th book to start reading them…I hate waiting lol. Anyone else read these?

(Re:Myself)



Harry Potter.
July 24, 2007, 4:21 pm
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Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Caught up in the craze? Not me. Normally I care less, but now I work at a bookstore. That means tons and tons of people are coming just for this. Worth it? I have no idea. Lol. What I do know is that the first day at just our store … we sold 1300 copies by the time I left. What are peoples focused now days? (Rhetorical questions sorry lol) With all the hype I sometimes wonder is it worth it? I guess I wont know because I don’t read enough to try and get through them. Instead of the newest thing to read, I have decided to read a classic. One I haven’t read before that is about pirates. Some of your already know because you skipped ahead. *shakes fist*. Yes I am reading Treasure Island! Got to love the classics.

Treasure Island



Summer Reading.
June 20, 2007, 8:09 am
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Well Last night I have finished ‘Peter Pan in Scarlet’. Crazy book. If you have ever read the first Peter Pan, you would know why because it has the same type of silly language and things happening as the first. The new books I’m going to read are once again kid books. They are cool kid’s books though. I’m reading, ‘Pirates of the Caribbean: Jack Sparrow #1: The Coming Storm.’

Jack Sparrow #1: The Coming Storm

Unfortunately since it’s a kid’s book it’s an easy read so I’m almost done with it already! So ill be reading the 2nd one next which is, ‘Pirates of the Caribbean: Jack Sparrow #2: The Siren Song.’

Jack Sparrow #2: The Siren Song

Even though these are kid’s books, they are pretty good so far so I’m going to read the first few and see if ill like them. Anyone else reading?



Reading again.
June 4, 2007, 4:41 pm
Filed under: Life, Readings

Hey guys sorry I haven’t been blogging. I’ve been busier yet have more time. I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone? Anyways, I started reading again … something I haven’t really done in a few years. Michelle is big into reading and she has kindled a past love of reading in me. So I finally finished reading ‘Lord of the Flies’ and have begun to read ‘Peter Pan in Scarlet.’

Peter Pan in Scarlet

I also have books lined up that I actually WANT to read. Imagine that. I’m almost Finally done with ‘Velvet Elvis’, which is an amazing book but I like going through it slowly because it has a lot of amazing things in it. The next book in line for (I guess you can say ‘spiritual’ reading) is ‘Sex God’.

Sex God

Michelle has already begun to read it and says it’s really good so far. Also I’ve been catching up on my comics again and I didn’t realized how much I missed reading them. I’m very excited these next few weeks to really get some relaxing in and enjoying life again. Ill let you know how it goes.



Spring Forward…Fall Back…
January 23, 2007, 2:38 pm
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Rob Bell

Rob Bell
Velvet Elvis
Movement One: Jump
*Springs*

The author tells a story about his son and a trampoline. In this section he brings a point on how the trampoline has springs and they are needed to help make it work. They are to help make sense of the deeper realities that drive how we live every day. The springs are God or Jesus, but they are statements and beliefs about our faith. Christians arent supposed to focus on the springs, what the springs are for is to help us understand the point (God) of our faith

An example Rob Bell uses is the Trinity. This idea has been in the Christian doctrine for a few hundred years, yet the word Trinity is not in the Bible at all. It is built on the idea of God being three separate personalities, yet still being one God. The Trinity was not part of the doctrine of the original church, but is widely part of the doctrine of today. So like the spring on a trampoline, Christian doctrine is constantly flexing and stretching.

In fact, its stretching and flexing are what make it so effective. It is firmly attached to the frame and the mat, yet it has room to move. And it has brought a fuller, deeper, richer understanding to the mysterious being who is God.

The author also brings up the example of Moses. God tells Moses that he is the I Am. Which back in this time no one had any idea how to describe God. God is not a visible object to be seen or heard, also even trying to define God, limits the power of God. What God is saying is that I will be who I will be (or knows Himself to be). This was a totally revolutionary idea back in Moses time, now it is knowledge to modern day Christians.

The point that Rob Bell is making, its Christians should study and get into the springs (Christian Doctrines), but when it becomes the point of our Christian life is the doctrines. It is wrong.

The springs are huge they hold up the mat but they arent God. They arent Jesus.